Flickering Flame

Empty moments

Broken inside

Darkness reigns

Cold dull mind

Sleepless nights

Endless days

Repeating and repeating

Shadowed self

Rocking, forward and back

Arms wrapped tight

This day just started

End, someday will

Seconds tick by

Time flows on

Eternity the present

Closing my eyes

Teeth clenched hard

Fingers clawing air

Twisting and turning

Chains wrapped tight

Escape?

Life?

Sarcastic laughter

Angry grumbles

Tired, so tired

Strength long gone

Constant struggles

Living hell

Pasteur green

Other side

One life to live

One chance to die

Wishful dreams

Barely sane

Streaming tears

Heart's shuddering shame

Anguish and pain

Screaming despair

Lost in mind

Fettered soul

Grasping hope

Lord of my life

Jesus Christ

Sanity’s light

Flame in darkness

Debts already paid

Slave to kindness

Life bought and saved

Blood, given freely

Offering to serve

Give me purpose

Lord help me live

Hands reach out

Grasping at hope

Cherished memories

Guiding light

Salvation in Christ

Hope eternal

Shinning bright

Flame of life 

Lord, Father in Heaven, I feel so broken. It's so easy to lose hope that the blessings you provide flutter away in the blink of an eye.  I want to stand strong, to face myself... but without you, I really am nothing.  

Thank you, Father God, for providing family and friends to stand by my side, to carry me when I'm weak, to remind me of you, of hope, of life.

In Jesus' name, amen.

Dinner with my co-worker friends.  Thank you for picking me up and taking me home when I couldn't drive... for reminding me of life that I still need to live.  *super big hugs*  Love ya guys!

Isaiah 40:31 (NIV)

But those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.