Noel
is coming home. Hurray!!!! He’s arriving tonight after a week in
Hawaii. I get two precious days with him before sending him off again
for a couple of days in San Diego. Two days. Time is ticking.
Sitting
in my car, I wait for Noel’s call. I’m in a parking lot with other
cars, all waiting for the signal that the person we came to pick-up is
here. Other cars come and they go. Where’s Noel’s call? *ring ring*
Yes! He’s here! Wait 5 minutes then come? Okay. I should pick you up
at the end of the arrival area? Sure!
I
wait close to 4 minutes. Long enough. Time to go see my husband!
Driving over to the arrival area, I cruise until I see a break in all
the cars. Should I park here? Naw, Noel said end of the line of cars.
Ummmm, after the break in the cars picking up passengers, I pass a
bunch of taxis. After the taxis, there’s no parking/pick-up area.
Grrrr… that first opening I saw was probably the pick-up area Noel
wanted me to go for. Nooooooo!
Frustrated
and irritated, I step on the gas. I have to circle the whole airport
and redo the pick-up situation. My meeting with Noel will be delayed
and I have to deal with all these speed bumps and traffic lights. *deep
sigh* This isn’t the attitude I wanted to greet my husband with. I
don’t want to waste my time and energy feeling bad. What’s done is
done. Focus, I get to see Noel soon. Kristy, pull yourself out of this
mental pit, be positive! I only have 2 days to spend with Noel, I
don’t want to meet him all grumpy. Cheer up!
I
want to fully bask my husband's smile, his voice, the strength of his
arms. Yay! I'm so looking forward to having my husband home. My heart
sings. My spirit dances. Thank you, Father God, for bringing my husband
back to my side... Even just for a bit... Thank you for the opportunity
to live by his side just a moment longer.
Father
God, I thank you for this week. That even with Noel away from home,
you provided for my health. Last week sucked and I was miserable, tired
and not feeling my best. This week, you gave me the energy to cook for
myself while Noel’s gone. I had the strength to play with two of my
neighbors, teaching two girls how to make their own silver necklace
using cutters, pliers, acid and even a flame torch! I was able to make
it through this work-week without dragging my feet in fatigue. I
successfully cooked for my friends from work without crashing. This
week is amazing! Lord, thank you that even though I don’t know what my
body is going to be like day to day, that you still provide for me above
and beyond all my expectations.
Lord,
it’d be nice if I had this energy and strength all the time, or even
the consistancy of knowing what days will be good and what days
wouldn’t… but Lord, in whatever state my body ends up, I am blessed to
see you always there for me… the good times and the bad.
Thank
you, Lord, for this ability to know that I am blessed every single
moment. In the changing of my days, I can clearly see your provisions.
In my weakness, I get to lean on your strength. In my strength, I get
to celebrate the joy of being alive. Each bit of time I have, every
opportunity you give, I am blessed by you to really live this one life
I’m given. Help me not waste even a fraction of your blessings; I want
it all. Don’t let me miss out on how good life with you really is.
Even
as I crave comfort, consistancy, assurance of the future, strength,
endurance and times of happiness… Lord, I thank you that I don’t always
have those things so that I see you so much clearer and get to enjoy
this life more fully. So bring it on! The life you want me to
experience, how you want me to live, so be it. So long as I get to be
immersed in your love, your provisions, your power, your mercy, your
very presence… this life is so worth it.
I’ve
gotta say, it really is true that even though my life is filled with so
many ups and downs; overall, I’m more alive than I’ve ever been when I
was healthy and physically independent. Funny… to be able to say that
being physically broken is a blessing. Weird huh?
May
you be blessed to know the joys of this life. Be blessed by God
eternal, to see the wonders of being alive in both the good times and
the bad. Until next week, take care!
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